COME WHAT WAY, HEAVEN WON'T FALL

I am not a Christian myself but as I read the Bible recently, I find this religion interesting and reassuring. I started to understand why so many people were firm believers.


I am not very good at with dealing pressure. I am prone to over-worrying about stuff like my career, my health, my relationship,etc. Of course worry does not help with anything at all. But I can not stop worrying. Last week I asked my Christian friend why he was so peaceful and satisfied everyday. Was his life so smooth and so different from mine? He said no, and he just believed God would help him if he was f*ed up. Whenever he felt lost and worried, he just prayed. He got peace without much effort.


I am agnostic and I do not really believe there is a super power as God. But I am jealous of what my friend's belief has given him. Unlike making a fuss about every trivial matter in my life, my friend simply holds that if God loves creatures as unimportant as trees and flowers so much as to make them blossom, then he is blessed and things will always go around.

On the other hand, some of my "urgent" worries I imagined seem ridiculous. Before I came to New York, I was worried that I could not find stores to buy clothes of my size; Before that, I was worried that I would not pass my VISA check; Before that, I was worried that no universities I applied would admit me; Before that, I was worried that I would not pass my TOEFL test. None of these came true and I was so nervous that I suffered from amnesia. This sounds silly but it was how I felt.

Religion makes life easy. I will try to find something I can look forward to, something that heals me, something that assures me "heaven won't fall".

                                          what's the world like in the babies' and animals' eyes?