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Monday, March 25, 2013

Chaos and Order. Love and Indifference

One vital difference between human and other animals is that humans do not have natural enemy, so they can watch and judge other creatures fight and struggle, as a saviour.

Now let's create a scenario: dinosaurs are not extinct. They are mortal enemy of human beings. Humans are vulnerable and defenseless. What impact could this have on humans' attitude towards life and love? For sure, two things: their way of dealing with nice things and fear.

Off the topic a bit, I had two experiences that shadowed me.

The first one came when I overdosed. As I described in my previous blog, I felt I lost control of everything, and got totally paranoid.

The second time came when I was swimming. I was trained in a 4-inch deep swimming pool, which is very shallow. I have never thought of swimming elsewhere, either the sea or deep-water area. The other day I went into a gym. It was not until I was in the deep-water zone did I realize the pool was not standardly structured. In the same lane, water depth ranges gradually from 3 inch to 12 inch. When I swam to about 8 inch, I suddenly realized I was in deep water. I was electrified and rigid with fear. I told myself that I could do it. I couldn't breathe. Though I survived, I couldn't swim for a whole year. Luckily I overcame my fear last month.

I started to think how I would react if I was confronted with danger on a daily basis. I would have to be alert and worry about death. I would put more emphasis on beautiful things, things that make me happy and bring out the bright side of me.

In other words, in a different universe, I wouldn't let things go even if they hurt me, as long as I enjoy spending time with them.



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